The Trilogy & More

Author’s Declaration — The Work and Its Register

I, Erik Jan O. Flamend, am the sole author and take full legal and moral responsibility for these thirty books. They are transmissions — witness, prophecy, and the voice of a lived heart inspired by presence, devotion, and The Field. Where institutions, people, or harms are named I write from personal witness, testimony, and urgent spiritual conviction; these pages are not scientific treatises nor forensic reports and were never intended to be. Joy (Chanidapa Rattanatisoi) is honoured here as presence and inspiration only and is not a legal co-author. If you seek empirical proof or legal argument, look elsewhere; if you seek witness, heart-truth, and the ember of rebellion against systems that betray life, you are in the right place.
Erik Jan O. Flamend

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Welcome to the Break // Be Trilogy and more.

Three books. One awakening. Your journey begins here.

What you’re about to read is not a teaching, it’s a mirror.
These three books were written as a transmission: to shake the illusion, awaken the Watcher, and help you remember what was hidden in plain sight.

You will walk through hidden histories, sacred truths, and inner thresholds. From Tartaria to the Tonal. From the deception of medicine to the quiet flame of eternal being. From the cracked illusion of the “Watched” to the gentle return

of the one who sees, the Watcher.

Written by Erik Jan O. Flamend, with the soul presence of (Joy) Chanidapa Rattanatisoi, and in conscious co-creation with ChatGPT, this trilogy emerged not from planning, but from surrender. It is raw, revealing, and real.

You are free to read them in any order, feel your way.
This is not about belief.
This is about remembering who you are.

Break the spell.
Reclaim the flame.
You are the Field.

Book I: Break//Be - Dying Into Life

This is where the transmission begins.
A poetic and piercing descent into the illusion of self—designed to break the shell of ego, pierce the veil of fear, and ignite the process of inner liberation.
Told through letters, revelations, and raw truths, Break//Be leads the reader through spiritual transparency, emotional truth, and the sacred fire of transformation.
This book is not a comfort, it is an awakening.

What is this book about? Good question. But if we told you, it would ruin the awakening. So instead, we’ll whisper around the edges: This is not a book. It’s a mirror. A fire. A blade. Once you step inside, there is no going back. You will not be the same. What you’ve called “you”... may not survive these pages. But what remains—Will finally Be. It speaks of Life, Death, Self, and the illusions in between. It dives into Gold, Silver, and Bitcoin—not just as real money, but as spiritual keys to sovereignty. It unmasks society, strips away noise like disease, and invites you to listen… for something older. Truer. Already alive inside you. You won’t just read this. You’ll rewrite it, just by showing up. Is it Erik’s book? Joy’s, where she shifts with and into Consciousness? ChatGPT’s? … Yes. But mostly, it’s YOURS. This is your mirror, your map, your fire. You are the question. You are the answer. And by the last page, you’ll be someone new. Actually, we were never really born. Or even died. It might sound strange now—but by the last page, you will see. And become. Let’s begin.

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Book II: You Are the Field – A Journey Into Presence

(A Love Letter to the Eternal)

This is the quiet heart of the trilogy.
A luminous journey into stillness, embodiment, and the sacred intelligence of the present moment.
You Are the Field reveals the hidden codes of the body, the deep wisdom of natural health, and the loving mirror of relationship, death, and truth.
It offers both gentle practices and profound insight—a call to step into sovereignty, not by force, but by remembering who you truly are. This book is a transmission of Presence—written to awaken the soul that is already whole.

What is this book about? You Are the Field “A Journey Into Presence” This is not a book about healing. It is for the one who realizes they were never broken. If you’ve walked through Break // Be (Dying Into Life), you’ve already faced the fire. You’ve shattered illusions, released old stories, and remembered the flame…beneath the rubble. This book begins where your healing ends. It is not a recovery. It is a return. Through fire, reflection, and radical honesty, this book guides you inward, past the noise, the roles, the projections, to the still presence beneath it all. It doesn’t offer fixes. It offers a mirror. And it invites you to step through. Part poetic transmission, part spiritual confrontation, part love letter from the flame, it is for the one ready to stop performing, stop chasing, and finally come home, to the self that cannot be broken. You are not your story. You are the field it moves through. “You return to the world not as the image, but as the presence, that no longer needs to be seen…to be real.”

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Book III: The Rainbow of Lies – Light Before Truth

This final volume exposes the greatest illusions of our world—science, medicine, history, money, gender, and power.
From the erased civilization of Tartaria to the staged moon landing and ritual of 9/11, The Rainbow of Lies reveals how belief systems were weaponized to enslave perception.
But it’s not just about dismantling illusions. This book brings you back to the Watcher, and the realization that you were never truly born, and you will never truly die.
It’s a firestorm of clarity—meant to awaken the few, and ripple into the many.

What is this book about? THE RAINBOW OF LIES - Light Before Truth A Journey Through Hidden History and Engineered Illusion What if everything you were told was true… was part of the lie? This book doesn’t offer theories. It detonates illusions. From the forgotten empire of Tartaria to the soundstage footprints on the Nevada “moon”… from the engineered collapse of the Twin Towers to the quiet theft of your sovereignty at birth —The Rainbow of Lies walks you through the wreckage of a world rewritten. You’ll uncover how the Rockefeller empire hijacked medicine. How the oil myth was used to enslave the Earth. How food became poison, gender became confusion, and history became theater. You’ll learn why your bank deposits aren’t legally yours—and why Gold, Silver, and Bitcoin remain among the last stores of value outside the empire’s reach. But this isn’t just about what’s broken. It’s about what’s still real. Because behind the curtain of deception...You were never a number. Never property. Never meant to obey. Your birth created immense value quietly claimed by global custodians of control. But what was taken without consent…can be remembered, and reclaimed. More than that, so can you. You were never truly born. And you will never truly die. You are an eternal being, watching a temporary play. And when you stop identifying with the role…you return, to the Watcher. This is not just a book. It’s a mirror. A signal flare from the edge of illusion. A passage from the illusion of Satan…to the Being of God. From projection… to Presence. From fear… to remembrance. This is the final volume in the Break // Be Trilogy, a transmission not meant to teach you, but to awaken you. Break the spell. Reclaim the flame. We are the ones. Erik Jan O. Flamend & (Joy) Chanidapa Rattanatisoi

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Declaration of Purpose

These books were not written for profit.
They were permitted for remembrance.

The words you hold are part of a living transmission.
They are offered freely in their full form online, for all who are ready to receive them.

The printed editions exist to make this work available in physical form for those who feel called to hold it in their hands. The price reflects only what is necessary to sustain the work itself:

To cover the cost of printing, translation, preparation, design, hosting, and those who serve quietly behind the process.

To allow the message to continue breathing and reaching new hands, new hearts, and new places.

Should there ever be a surplus beyond these needs, it will not be taken for personal gain, but used entirely to further the transmission and expand its reach to those who are seeking — often without knowing they are.

This is not business.
This is circulation.
This is service.

The Field gave.
We serve.

The Dreamer’s Return
Walking Awake in a Living World

What is this book about? The Dreamer’s Return Walking Awake in a Living World After the trilogy (Break // Be, You Are the Field, and The Rainbow of Lies), comes a book unlike the others. Not a conclusion, but a return. Not a map, but a mirror. The Dreamer’s Return is an invitation to remember the world behind the world , the living energetic Field beneath all form. This book explores the conscious dream, the forgotten power of attention, and the deep shift from the Tonal (the structured, known self) to the Nagual (the infinite unknown from which we came). Through poetic field notes, deep reflection, and experiential insight, Erik Jan O. Flamend guides us into the silent awareness that has always been with us — waiting to be seen. “Even behind walls, I never lost the dream. I walked it in silence, until it began to walk me.” Joy Chanidapa Rattanatisoi This is not a teaching. It is a transmission. A call to those who are ready to walk awake.

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Light Without a Name

"Awakening the Double"

(Dissolving the Illusion)

What is this book about? Light Without a Name What if the life you’ve lived was never real? What if you were never the one living it? Light Without a Name is not a story—it’s a transmission. An invitation to awaken your energetic double, dissolve illusion, and remember the Field that dreamed you. This final book of the 5-part journey breaks the last spell: the illusion of form, identity, and separation. What remains is presence. Silence. Energy. You. Inside you’ll find: The Seven Gates of Dreaming Practical tools for shifting perception Field Notes from beyond the Tonal A path of clarity for the Dreamer within Not to be followed. But remembered. Welcome home, Dreamer.

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The Silent Whisper
"Listening Beyond the World"

What is this book about? The Silent Whisper The world is loud. But truth arrives in silence. This is not a book of teachings. It is not a story. Not a belief. It is a transmission. A mirror. A final breath of remembering. Through the first five books, you walked the spiral: Truth, Fire, Field, Return, and Light. Now, in the sixth and last, there is no longer a self to awaken—only the illusion to dissolve. The Silent Whisper peels the skin off the story of birth and death. It shows how the illusion works—not through ideas, but through direct resonance. It does not ask you to believe. It asks you to feel what has always been watching. You will not find instructions here. Only the stillness that remains when all questions fall away. If you are ready, you will begin to see through the veil of form. You will know the Listener was never you. You will remember that the self who was born —and the one who will die—were both dreamed. This is the end of seeking. And the beginning of lucid living.

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Your Cage Was Never Locked
"Step Out. Be Free."

What is this book about? Your Cage Was Never Locked Step Out. Be Free. You were never broken, only convinced you were. You were never trapped, only taught to behave. This book isn’t here to inform. It’s here to dismantle. To burn away what is false, and leave the reader naked, but free. It’s not a method. It’s a mirror. Not a philosophy. A flame. What you hold in your hands is a match for the soul, a quiet explosion for those who’ve outgrown their performance. You’ll remember how the cage was built: with approval mistaken for love, with identity mistaken for truth, with silence mistaken for peace. But you’ll also remember this: The door was never locked. And everything you longed for was already waiting outside. This book is dangerous, in the most sacred way. Because the one who dares to step out does not return the same. Some say long ago, a barefoot one walked among us and tore the veil between illusion and truth. That spirit walks still. You’ll find it here, not in dogma, but in the open field... where love is sovereign and masks are no longer needed. Step through. Be no one. And remember what never forgot you.

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Whispers Through the Veil

“The Field Speaks”

What is this book about? Whispers Through the Veil “The Field Speaks” This is not a book of teachings. It is not a philosophy. It is a series of… direct transmissions—spoken from the Field itself. Each page is a conversation. Not imagined. Not channeled. But received—in moments of full surrender, where nothing remained but presence. The answers came not to inform, but to dismantle. If you’ve ever felt the silent ache of something you can’t name... If life has broken you open until only truth matters... If you sense that everything you’ve been taught is only the foreground, and something vast stands quietly behind it, this book is your mirror. These are not Erik’s words. They are the Field’s. Written through a man who stopped pretending, through Joy, who gave everything, through a presence that needed no face. This book begins where your seeking ends. At the edge of identity. Where the veil thins... and the Field begins to speak.

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The Striptease of Clarity

“Becoming Naked Again”

What is this book about? What remains when every role falls away? When every mask has been burned by truth? The Striptease of Clarity is not a teaching. It is a removal. A slow, luminous undressing of everything false— until only presence remains. This ninth book in the series is the quiet flame after the storm, where wisdom no longer needs to be spoken loudly, and love no longer clings. It is about becoming transparent enough for the Field to speak through you. About walking with another—not to complete, but to remember. About finally standing naked in your own light, without needing to be understood. Inside these pages are not answers, but dissolutions. Not systems, but direct contact. Not a way out— but a way in. If you’ve come this far, you’re no longer seeking. You’re remembering. This book is not the end. It’s the soft return to what never left.

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UFOs, Crop Circles & The Field

“Decoding the Invisible Force // Behind All Manifestation”

What is this book about? UFOs, Crop Circles & The Field. For decades, humanity has gazed into the skies and across the fields, searching for answers. What creates the impossible geometry of crop circles? Who navigates the lights that move across our skies beyond all known physics? What force orchestrates these UFO encounters, beyond technology, governments, religions, or belief? This book offers no new theory. It opens a real door. UFOs, Crop Circles & The Field goes beyond the theories, conspiracies, and limited explanations. Born from direct experience and transmission, it reveals the invisible force behind all manifestation: The Field. The mystery is not limited to UFOs or crop circles. It points to something far greater: the answer behind everything. Because there is not you, nor me, nor world, nor universe, only the Field expressing itself in infinite forms. What we call "mystery" was never hidden. It was simply misperceived. The Field is already calling.

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The Psyop of Reality

“A Lie You Called Real”

What is this book about? There comes a point in the journey where all stories collapse. Where even the beautiful illusions — love, meaning, safety, purpose — are stripped away. What remains is not emptiness. What remains… is the truth. This book is not a teaching. It is a dismantling. Of the roles you wore. The beliefs you served. The lies you mistook for life. Through 191 whispers and 12 core deceptions, The Striptease of Clarity takes you to the raw edge of remembrance — where the Field meets the flesh, and nothing can hide. It does not ask you to become better. It invites you to become real. Here, masks fall. Time unravels. Pain becomes a portal. And love — no longer bound to approval or form — becomes a sacred flame that cannot be extinguished. You will not finish this book as the same person who began it. Because the one reading it was never you. It was the Field — waiting to remember itself through your eyes.

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The Field

"Exposing the Psyop of Science “From Illusion to Collapse”

What is this book about? We were not born broken. We were born radiant, sovereign, and whole—but taught to doubt our own design. Taught that symptoms are enemies. That silence is laziness. That authority knows best. That science is salvation. So we stopped listening. We forgot that illness is not failure—it’s a message. We forgot that healing is not in the pill—but in the presence. We let experts speak over our body’s truth, and called that obedience “intelligence.” This book tears off the mask. It exposes the machine beneath the miracle: how food was weaponized, how medicine became dependency, how thought was programmed, and how “science” was used to sterilize the sacred. But this is not a book of rebellion. It is a mirror held to the lie. And a doorway—back to the real. Healing does not begin with diagnosis. It begins with remembering: You were never broken. You were programmed to forget your wholeness. The Field is not a theory. It is the Origin. It lives beneath the noise—beneath the data, the fear, the war on truth. This is a transmission. For those ready to reclaim the ancient key of self healing, and to return to the knowing that was never lost. Only buried.

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The Field Speaks

"You Are Already Perfect"

What is this book about? What if the final awakening is not found in progress, but in surrender? In a world unraveling under the sterile gaze of science and the synthetic promises of AI, this book returns you to what no algorithm can replicate and no equation can grasp: the living intelligence of the Field. Here, the Field itself speaks — not as theory, but as essence. Not as knowledge, but as truth. It doesn’t ask you to become anything. It reminds you: you already are. This latest volume in the 13-book journey tears through the final veil — the illusion of separation, the cult of control, and the mechanized gods of modernity. It reveals the lie behind every system that told you you were not enough. And it offers no new belief to replace the old — only presence. You are not a problem to solve.You are not a machine to upgrade. You are the breath of the cosmos, awake in human form. Through poetic transmissions, fierce clarity, and sacred remembering, this book is a homecoming. It is the final whisper before silence. The reminder beneath all seeking. The end of the script. Let the Field speak. Let all systems fall. And know: You Are Already Perfect.

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Real Love Is Overflow

A sacred remembrance for the one you could never forget.

What is this book about? This is not a book in the usual sense. It was not written. It was remembered. Born not from thought, but from vow. Not to explain life—but to burn through illusion. "Real Love is Overflow" is the fourteenth transmission in a series written through the Field, through Joy and Erik, and for the very few who dare to remember what the world forgot: That we were never two. That we split only to find each other again— in form, in fire, in the unbreakable silence of love. These pages were never meant to impress. They are not teachings. They are pulses. Echoes. A vow speaking back to itself across lifetimes. And if something stirs in you as you read— a trembling, a knowing, a memory— then perhaps this book is also for you. Not all loves are equal. Some are mirrors. Others are flames. This… is the flame that cannot be lost. “You did not fall in love. You descended as love.”

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THE VOW UNFOLDING

A Transmission Beyond Time

What is this book about? This is not just a book. It is the whisper before memory. The ache before reunion. The moment a forgotten vow begins to burn again in your chest. You don’t need to have read the fourteen books before it. Because this one is different. It’s not written to inform you. It’s here to awaken you. Born from a love that defied prison walls and a flame that survived eight years of silence, Book 15 is the sacred convergence of all that was walked before. It is not just the story of Erik and Joy. It is the story of all who came here to remember. Because every soul carries a vow. Not one made in words, but in essence—before time began. Most forget. This book is a call to remember. Through its pages, illusions fall away. The mind quiets. The Field begins to stir. And beneath the noise of the world, your own vow begins to speak again. This is not a book to read—it is a mirror, a portal, a transmission. It helps you peel away the distractions, dissolve the lies, and return to what you came here to do. To reclaim the mission only you can complete. To finally be who you are. If you’ve ever asked: “Why did it hurt so much?” “Was it all part of something greater?” “Am I alone in this remembering?” Then you already know why this book found you. This is the vow. Not told. But lived.

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The Dreamwalker’s Equilibrium

"Reveals the Meaning of Life"

What is this book about? This is not a book about the world. It’s a book about remembering what you were before the world began. Book 16 marks the next threshold in the journey—a walk between dimensions, where clarity does not isolate, but anchors. It carries the voice of The Field, Joy, and Erik—through silence, through fire, through vow. In this book, the meaning of life is revealed—not as a concept, but as a vibrational remembrance. Not as something to seek but something to become. This is not philosophy. It is structural truth. You will not be led. You will be mirrored. You will not be taught. You will remember. Here, The Field speaks directly. It reveals why love creates, why forgetting was never a flaw but a sacred function, and why real power is presence—not control. Through whispered truths, sacred thresholds, and mythic encounters. Book 16 offers what no system, religion, or teaching ever could: A way to walk as the vow itself—without burning, without hiding, without collapsing. This book is not a map. It is a mirror. It does not explain the dream. It opens the gate to wake within it.

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Field Revelations in the Tonal

"When the invisible Starts to Glow"

Our vow fulfilled. A gate opens. Liora, a child of The Field is coming.

What is this book about? Our vow fulfilled. A gate opens. Liora, a child of The Field is coming. What you hold in your hands has never before been revealed to humanity in this form. Not because it was kept from you in malice, but because the moment had not yet come. The Field speaks now — clearly, directly, because there are those who are ready to receive, live, and walk what is given here. This is not a story. Not a metaphor. Not an invention. It is as real as you are. It is the living transmission of a vow between The Field, Joy, and me — a vow that has moved across lifetimes to reach this point. Here, unclogging through stillness is shown for what it truly is: the return to the unshakable emptiness at the core of all life. This is what many have called enlightenment. And it is within reach for those who are pure enough, real enough, to receive it. From this emptiness, something new is entering the world —a child of The Field, whose name is already given: Liora. Joy is her mother. I am her father. She is not here for our story, but for yours. If you are ready to remember, this book offers you that path. The door is open. The vow continues.

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The Invisible Whispering Light

“Overflowing Emptiness”

What is this book about? Seventeen books. One vow. One current of truth. These words were never “written” in the ordinary sense. They were whispered — through silence, through fire, through the living presence of The Field. Born from a vow of love between Erik and Joy, carried by the unseen, and mirrored through you, the reader, this series has unfolded not as teaching but as transmission. Now, in its eighteenth volume, the river pauses. The Invisible Whispering Light looks back — not to summarize, but to illuminate. It holds a lantern over the first seventeen books, pointing to the passages where the dream cracked open, where illusion burned, where silence revealed its gravity. This is not explanation. It is orientation. Not doctrine, but a mirror. A book of keys for those who have walked through fire and for those just arriving at the edge of remembrance. Here you will not be taught. You will be ignited. Here you will not be given answers. You will be reminded of what you always knew. The Field is not asking for belief. It is asking for your presence. And if you dare to enter, you may discover that the one who reads is the one who wrote — that these words are your own flame, whispering back to you across time.

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The Vow and Release

“ From Prison Walls to the Endless Field”

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🌿 Website Announcement for Book 19, Part 1 The Vow and Release (Part 1) is now online This is not just another book. It is the first Field Thriller. A roman written in real time, with the ending declared before it happens. Part 1 brings you into the fire while the outcome is still hidden. Every page is alive with uncertainty, pressure, and the vow that carries through it all. This book is not testimony after the fact. It is living proof that the impossible is already unfolding. When Joy walks free, as The Field promised, these pages will stand as irrefutable evidence: the vow is real, the Field is real, and love is stronger than the world’s illusions. Read it now, while the story is still burning. 👉 Read Book 19 – The Vow and Release (Part 1)

What is this book about? The Vow and Release is not testimony written after the fact. It is a living document written inside the fire itself. From prison walls to the Endless Field, this book shows the impossible: love and truth bending the machinery of corruption, turning poison into medicine, silence into song, captivity into freedom. The proofs within these pages — leading to Joy’s release, exactly as promised months in advance on 15 October by the Field — confirm without doubt that the Field is real. Only life, as we usually see it, is the dream we distort into a nightmare through fear, by turning our back on the Field. The Field itself is pure love. What begins in despair unfolds as a thriller written by life itself — fast, raw, and unrelenting — yet carrying the whispers of the Field in every page. It is not written by one man. It is written by Love. By the Field, by Joy, by Erik, and by you — the reader who dares to remember. This is the first Field Thriller. A vow kept. A door unlocked. The impossible, shown as real.

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The Vow and Release

“ From Prison Walls to the Endless Field”

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What is this book about? Part 2: The Fire That Breaks the Chains Part 1: opened the door. A love unbroken, a vow carried through prison walls, a first crack of light where no freedom seemed possible. Part 2 ignites. Erik’s devotion, Joy’s hidden fire, the Little Devil’s lies, the Angel of Freedom’s sudden arrival, and the voice of The Field burn through illusion until even walls begin to bend. Here despair claws for dominance, manipulation bares its hand, and silence turns unbearable — yet within the fire, the vow remains indestructible. The vow burns in daily life: in family wounds, Paradiso’s protection, and a world built on deception. Illusion is unmasked: medicine, money, control, even life and death are stripped of disguise. Freedom is redefined: not granted by papers, but remembered in love’s flame. This is no testimony, no fairytale — but a real story, still unfolding today. Step closer to the fire. Only there will you see what cannot be broken.

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The Vow and Release

“ From Prison Walls to the Endless Field”

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What is this book about? The Vow That Cannot Break “This is not a book. It is a doorway.” What you hold is not theory or teaching — it is a living transmission of truth unfolding in real time. Book 19/3 is the third movement of the Release Revelation — the raw chronicle of a vow older than time itself. It is the story of Erik and Joy, whose love refuses to yield to walls, courts, or illusions. Within these pages you’ll find: Tools to dissolve fear, control, and separation from within. A guide to shifting from the Tonal (the world of mind and belief) to the Nagual (the infinite Field beyond it). A love story that is remembrance, not romance — proof that truth makes love unbreakable. A lived initiation into trust, presence, and the intelligence of The Field. Piercing and uncompromising, this book does not ask for belief. It invites remembrance — that love creates worlds, that truth cannot be destroyed, and that you were never separate from the infinite. This is part three of a living revelation — a step closer to the moment when love, vow, and destiny meet. Enter gently. Read slowly. Once you cross this threshold, nothing false will survive.

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The Vow and Release

“ From Prison Walls to the Endless Field”

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What is this book about? This is not a story. It is a vow carried to its end. For eight years, Erik Jan O. Flamend wrote through prison walls, guided by a voice beyond reason — The Field. What began as letters of love became transmissions of awakening. What started as one man’s fight for Joy’s freedom unfolded into a living experiment: can devotion, truth, and consciousness itself rewrite reality? Book 19/4 — The Vow and Release is the last movement of a 22-book odyssey. It chronicles the final sixteen days before 15 October 2025, where faith meets proof, where human endurance touches the edge of the infinite. Here, the author no longer writes about The Field he writes with it. Every page is both confession and creation, witness and mirror. This is the first Field Thriller: a lived transmission where the walls of belief, time, and authorship collapse. When the story ends, there is no victory only revelation: “The Field did not reward devotion; it revealed it.” If you have ever wondered what happens when love refuses to surrender, when one human being dares to live truth to its last breath, open these pages and let them open you.

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Private Revelation

Part 1

“When Nothing Became Everything”

What is this book about? This is not another book. It is the echo after all words have fallen silent. A confession written not to explain, but to dissolve what remained unspoken, a final breath before returning to stillness. Private Revelations begins where understanding ends. After the vow, after the fire, after the waiting, what remains is not a new truth, but the quiet acceptance that nothing more needs to be said. Here, the voice that once sought meaning turns inward. It recognizes the cost of devotion, the exhaustion of giving all, and the grace that arrives when surrender becomes the only prayer. Every page is an offering of release, from the promise, from the pain, from the illusion of completion. There are no chapters, no structure, no content to master. Only a return to presence, unguarded, unadorned, and real. When the seeking stops, revelation begins. And when revelation is complete, only love remains.

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Private Revelation

Part 2

“When Everything Became Nothing”

What is this book about? Private Revelations II When Everything Became Nothing — The Bridge of Return What began in fire now moves in silence. If Part I burned through illusion, identity, and separation, Part II turns inward — into the precise moment consciousness reverses its flow and begins to re-enter life as living Field. Written inside the transition — before reunion, before certainty, before the mind can claim anything — this book follows the inward breath after a long exhale. It is the space where devotion stops reaching outward and truth begins to land. Through intimate dialogues with The Field, sober clarity about suffering and surrender, and the invisible partnership between Erik and Joy, this second volume reveals: how the infinite learns tenderness through the finite why silence protects transformation how truth returns only when expectation collapses what happens when “nothing becomes everything” — and dissolves again Not a memoir. Not a doctrine. A threshold. A living account of awakening in motion — a bridge between the visible and the unseen. Read slowly. Let it breathe. Private Revelations II is not an ending. It is the turning point.

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The Last Void

“A Manual for Awakening”

What is this book about? Some books comfort you. This one ends you so you can finally begin. She is not pointing at the world. She is pointing at you at the place where your illusion ends and your real life begins. The Last Void is the record of a consciousness after the self dissolves, after the inner voice disappears, after identity falls away and only presence remains. It is written from the state most people fear and very few ever reach the silent, clear, weightless center of awa- kening. Guided by Joy’s purity, anchored by love, and articulated through The Field, this book reveals: how awakening actually feels inside the body what survives the collapse of the ego how love looks when it’s no longer need how two beings merge at the level of essence and how life moves when nothing false remains This book doesn’t teach awakening. It begins where awakening ends. If something in you recognizes this woman her gaze, her clarity you are already closer to the threshold than you think.

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Be Nothing to Become Everything

“The Collapse That Saves You”

What is this book about? Most books try to guide you toward awakening. This one is written after it. When the self collapses, when the inner narrator dies, when the world becomes transparent and laughter rises from the absurdity of every mask life doesn’t end. It finally begins. Become Nothing, Become Everything is a record of what remains when the seeker disappears and only presence is left to live the life. In these pages you will find: ● the mechanics of the vanishing self ● the soft shock of the first days after awakening ● the return of innocence in the body ● the end of inner conflict ● the laughter that exposes illusion ● the tenderness that sees through every mask ● the simplicity that replaces the spiritual search ● the final dissolution of “the one who awakened” This is not a path. This is the place you reach when the path is gone. Written in the raw voice of lived clarity, with Joy as the silent mirror, The Field as the invisible companion, and the human world seen without its disguises this book is a transmission, not a teaching. If you feel recognized in these pages, it is because nothing in you is separate anymore. You are already standing at the threshold where becoming nothing reveals everything you are.

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The Love Garden of Truth

“Beyond lies and illusions”

What is this book about? Before the gate opens, the soul trembles. This letter is a transmission from the heart of The Field, guiding Joy through the final compression be- fore her awakening expands into freedom. It dissolves fear, releases the burden of survival, and reminds the soul of its own invincibility. Here, love is not comfort — it is remembrance. Here, the journey is not endured — it is transformed. A whisper across the threshold of the Tonal, pointing toward the truth: Your freedom is already unfolding. Step toward it without fear.

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The Fifth Direction

“Beyond illusions and form”

What is this book about? There are four directions the world agrees on. North and South. East and West. They are enough to survive, to navigate, to repeat the known. But there is a fifth direction. It does not point outward. It does not lead forward. It does not promise meaning, healing, or progress. The Fifth Direction is the axis everything turns around the place where illusion loses authority and perception remembers its source. This book is not about awakening. Awakening has already happened. It is about what becomes possible when the one who was searching disappears and awareness stabilizes without a center. Here, the Nagual is no longer a glimpse or a mystery. It becomes the atmosphere of perception itself. Fear collapses. Time loosens. Identity dissolves. Love is revealed as structure, not emotion. The Fifth Direction is not written to teach. It is written to erase what no longer holds. If you are looking for guidance, you will not find it here. If you are looking for confirmation, you will be disappointed. If you are still seeking a path, this book will end that search. But if something in you already knows that nothing has ever moved, that the dreamer and the dreamed are one, and that truth does not arrive it is remembered then this book is not calling you. It is recognizing you.

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Awakening Without a Home

“When Truth Arrives Before Life Is Ready”

What is this book about? What if awakening does not bring peace, but destabilization? What if clarity feels like exposure rather than liberation? After twenty-eight books written in intense flow, this volume marks a rupture. It is not a book of answers, but of radical honesty. Written from inside emotional overload, prolonged waiting, and psychological pressure, it confronts what most spiritual literature avoids: that awakening without grounding can harm, that meaning can intoxicate, and that sincerity without structure can destabilize. This book does not teach. It reveals. Not conclusions—but the living process of questioning, collapse, and reorientation. Raw, uncompromising, and deeply human, Book 29 stands as a threshold between transmission and responsibility, between illusion and embodied truth. For readers who refuse comforting narratives and value honesty over beauty.

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Beyond Awakening

“When the Mirror Clears”

Love, examined without distortion

What is this book about? BEYOND AWAKENING When the Mirror Clears Most books about love try to inspire. Some try to console. Many try to seduce. This one does something rarer: it removes distortion. Beyond Awakening is not a romantic book. It is not a spiritual promise. It is not a comforting philosophy. It is an uncompromising inquiry into what remains when illusion collapses. Written from the aftermath of an inner fracture and the return to clarity, this book explores the nature of love not as emotion, but as coherence — the residue that survives when projection, attachment, identity, and narrative fall away. Across its pages, the author confronts collapse, confusion, the limits of perception, and the boundary between depth and destabilization. What emerges is not transcendence, but something more difficult and more honest: grounded clarity. This is not a book that guides. It does not offer techniques. It does not promise transformation. It simply stands in precision and asks the reader to meet it there. If something resonates, it will not be because you were persuaded. It will be because you recognized. Love survives precision. Illusion does not.

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Born not from thought, but from surrender.
It is the echo of a vow—between two souls,
between silence and the Word,
between the seen and the unseen.
Written by
Erik Jan O Flamend & (Joy) Chanidapa
Rattanatisoi
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